Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Some days...

Some days are better than others. Today, was a good day. I actually got to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. I showered. I did some laundry and even made it to the grocery store. These tasks may sound easy, but with a baby and a puppy... easier said than done. Yesterday, was awful. My son had a fever and stuffy nose, screamed and cried what felt like ALL DAMN DAY. The day before that, even worse. I mean, as a whole, it was an alright day. I finished a project - refinishing a desk to use as a hair/makeup station. I was unhappy with the results, I decided to use mod podge and wrapping paper on the top and sides after seeing it done on pinterest... bad idea. It's a lot harder than it looks to smooth out and not rip. I just wasnt feeling 100% mentally though. Just an over all bad mental day. I was upset about a few things I would rather not get into, and ended up having a minor meltdown, cried, but got a few things off of my chest talking to hubby. Sometimes I just have to fall apart to put myself back together, it also helps put things in perspective for my hubby sometimes. He doesn't realize that I'm a little extra sensitive emotionally since having the baby. Hormones are all over the place, I have a completely new body to adjust to, new responsibilities and high expectations to meet. Life as a new mom is chaos. Complete and utter chaos. However, the chaos IS worth it. I promise. I have never felt a love like I have for my son. So much love my heart could explode. It makes me sad when I see moms judging each other. Especially about things that don't matter. We are all just trying to make it out of this parenting thing alive... Can we not just be positive and uplift each other? Why judge over things like cloth diapers or disposables? Baby wearing or not? Or what brand someone is using? We do what we can within the budgets we have, and make choices that are right for our own families. Just a thought. Melanie Just a Northern Mom